Topshop. Please.

Was watching American Next Top Model on youtube now, And looking at all those models wearing pretty dresses makes me wanna go shopping! I WANNA GO SHOPPING, GET NICE CLOTHES. ): But I have alot to save up this month. Alot of things to buy next month. And when pay arrives next month, I dont think I'll need the money. So Im gonna loan money from Dearest Daddy first. That's why I am working my arse of now so that I have enough money to return him next month. Was browsing through topshop website and goodness those dresses are so prettyyyyyyyyy. So I decided to browse through F21 one. In the end. Huge disappointment. Like whalao. How many times you guys wanna design those dresses and tops again and again. Im not intending to sleep. Cos I am going to malaysia tmr. And I would be sleeping at Grandpa's car OTW there. Hahah. So gonna watch ANTM till tmr morning. Hehe. And I am fine people. (: Oh yes watching ANTM reminds me of Bfbf, Cos he's actions are so like Tyra Banks even the way he talks. Hahah. Alright. Bye people. It's 4.02am now.



Try to reach out to you touch my hand,
Reach out as far as I can.

Songs for you, Truths for me.

Im not as strong as I thought I were. Thought i can juat forget bout everything, But hell NO. I dont know why, When I was listening to with you gone, I teared even when everyone was looking at me, And I know to them I am a complete fool. oh whatever, Let it be if they even wanna assume that I am when they dont know anything bout me and happnened to me. No, I am not strong enough to face all these truth. I am not. But guess I just have to be happy, What to do. Life still goes on, And yes. If I really love someone. I should just feel happy for him instead if crying everyday when it cannot solve the problem. Yea.

Time is going by, So much faster then I.

My title says it all.
So quiet, So different.
Im changing.
Cannot bear this anymore.
Cried so hard in the toilet when i heard this news.
I'll take a year or two to change everything and be back to normal.

Thanks for watching as I fall.

Thanks for acting like you care. (:

Death? NO WAY.

I felt so bad that day, That i wanted to die. As in end my life. But i knew i was string enough to carry on everything and face up to challanges that god gave me. Perhaps. I dont worth his love, Or maybe he dont worth mine. But always i say Im not worthy of somebody;s love. Im like so tired. And always crying every night. I wanna sleep now. Okay. Fine I still cannot get over it. And still loves him. Very much.

):

Felt really really downnnnn. I love you. You wont know how much I do. But you never once liked me. Oh yes. Maybe as a friend. Feelings cannot be forced. But it felt bad. For me. Love you so deeply and mad. But it's so not worth it. So not. Im just wasting my time. My love for you, You'll never know. Perhaps my love for you is just like how much your love for her.

Let it all out.

Crying while listening to sad songs feels really great. I poured everything out yesterday night, And glad I did it. It's hard to store everything inside. And always acting strong in front of them when somethinf really bad strikes. I hate it. Why must human have emotions? Im fine people. After crying, I'd feel better. Who dont? All i need, God please give it to me. Ashiq told me the same thing as what i told shuhui. God has plans for you, Dont rush things. I love talking to him. Hahha. Gotta lepak when he book out!

Dear God.

All i want to do know, Is to bathe, After bathing I wanna listen to all the sad songs in my Ipod and cry my lungs out.

Crush

Did i mention that abt 2 months ago, ******** added me on Fb? I was like OMGGGGGGGG are you kidding me, He add me on FB? Okay. People reading this might think like that only mah. He use to be my crush years back okay. I rmbed doing stupid things. Like i would wait for him to come out and take the same bus with him. Heheh. And i rmb standing next to him a few times in the bus and i almost die because i cannot breathe easy. Heheheheh. Shuhui know all lah. But it's all in the past alr lah. Sore throat now. Damn it.

Pay!

Whalao. I can only get my pay next monday. How sad? I hope i can get at least 500 bucks. I needa give Dad 250 bucks. And shuhui that woman asked me to go Dorothy Perkins with her, In the end. Whalao. Alot of nice clothes i wanna get lor. Actually after seeing the Dorothy perkin floral prints tunic, I think it's nicer then Topshop one. Cheaper somemore. Hahah. Might be getting that. There's a blue top also very nice. Hahha. I swear i must get 2 new clothes next week after i got my pay. I wanna get a new bag too. Though i just got 1 last week. Heheh. I need to get my hair done too. It's been a month since i went to John's place for treatment. Hmmmmm. And yes. Gonna find new restaurant and pamper myself with food. Gonna pull shuhui along. We're like live to eat kinda person. Hahah. Im craving for Black pepper beef now.