Broke now.

I am sucha failure. I am so broke now. It's only the fifth day since Ive gotten my pay. And now I am broke. I dint bought any new clothes cos I dont have the money. I forced myself not to go into topshop and any others I used to love going. I hate it. I only have like 20 bucks left and I need to save it for chalet. How useless can I be? I am so jealous or certain people. Not really jealous just envy. They get to paint their nails with pretty colours and buy clothes so often, I have to work so I cant paint my nails. And my father wouldnt give me money. So I spend my money so fast. ): I want to paint my nails, get new clothes and seriously go for a holiday. Maybe like langkawi or wherever that has beach for just maybe 3 days 2 nights to chill out there. I need to release my stress or whatever stuffs. Ive been telling Dad that why not we go Langkawi instead of hongkong so we can save the money and just chill out. He still didnt wanna go on with my plan. I am so tired. I wanna go and sleep alr. I hope I'll strike 4D tmr. Please god. I am so broke nowwww.